I Will Never

i could not give you away dressed in blue and white ... i only want to be clear i’ve no will or wish to fight

i could never wingman for you my heart would refuse ... but now my brain must make it see we’ve nothing left to lose

i could never give you to a date that’s blind ... only wished to make you smile with joy the only kind

it hurts me to hear

how once i was so near

exits in front and rear

the lights in the floor appear

i must not write or call because i cannot stop ... when it’s me that’s sweeping everyone says i should mop

please remind me to remember all the times i let you down ... i can’t apologize enough for losing Queen and crown 

i could never give you up unless you tell me so ... please don’t make it a secret everyone around you knows

it hurts me to know

everyone says i should go

do i agree to keep

the door that leads to the deep

when will i ever learn what i knew from the start ... give up mind and soul but not what was left of my heart

i won’t need to give up what i can’t give away ... i’m too young to die and much too late to play

i could never give you up even if i get old ... would you write me in the only August that was cold

it hurts not to share

with no one anywhere 

masks will fall from the ceiling

when it’s time to quit believing 

i must learn to give you up to keep you one more day ... when it’s clear to those who aren’t it’s time i go away

i could never give away each time i thought i could ... have i heard from all i failed and everyone i should?

did i ever have a chance with those who never smile ... have i lost a friend i never knew for a while

it hurts to feel the pain 

there’s no one i will blame

masks will fall from the ceiling

when it’s time to quit breathing