In Love With Loneliness

I was once worthy of love 

• I was taller stronger and can cover more ground 
• any infield was home no music was more sound 
• I could win home or away
• made hits into double plays

.... when i was worthy of love

I was once worthy of joy 

• made every room seem brighter my match good as a lighter 
• what I lack in money I made up for being funny 
• I looked grown-up but inside I was a boy 

... when i was worthy of joy

I was so certain I was enough 

• from now on everything I write is my own with copyright 
• it might not be as good as what I wrote in the hood 
• but that’s when I could get away with looking tough 

in the day, i thought i was enough

now that I know fear I don’t know what I’m doing here • I don’t know how to survive or why • only soldiers are brave • only the rich send them to their grave • now that I sleep with no one but fear

I’m in love with loneliness 

• she’s quite content to leave me in the dark 
• she likes to shop where there’s no place left to park 
• she won’t answer questions she never makes phone calls 
• when I try to talk to her its the only time she falls 
• she tells me that she cries and she never tells me lies 
• but that’s because she doesn’t tell me anything at all