The Unforgivable

to the tune of no one

you can’t smile

when you know it’s me

letters and late presence

punishment or penance

sleepless dreams in wake

for heaven or goodness sake

done living a lie

when you know you think it’s me

in a lot full of tenants

less in common than we sense

in a county measured in miles

one of us knows when you can’t smile

you won’t smile

when you know it’s mine

the eyes of love won’t wait

seeing the eyes that you bait

more priority than truth

to a life easily ignored

easy to ignore

easier ignored 

no longer ignored

no forward

so easy to describe afraid

nothing wrong with getting laid

welcoming tomorrow today

a tribute to life in decay

borrowed blue new divine

for nothing old that will shine

for when it comes to mind

almost forgot why you won’t  smile

how many days will end

when you see me do you pretend

your tomorrow never mine

what you rent you won’t rewind

so many more important things 

so many unused diamond rings

from the important and by the sure

you won’t let me go away

you don’t want me to stay

you won’t hear me say you

won’t tell me to go away 

silence is not enough

i’m no diamond nor rough

if all i get for poems is silence

then you don’t need my style

for they’ll never make you smile

again

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everyone knows more than me

how blind my faith refuses to see

what takes up your space must i now file

never allowed to see you smile

if I ever see you again

will I be expected to pretend 

will I be as ignored

will it depend on if you’re on board

all messages left in a pile 

that will never help anyone smile

now that you’ve seen my soul apart

you still clutch and brake my heart

let it go

let it know

why it no longer helps you smile

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5/26/20

“... until i hear it from you ...” ~gin blossoms

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