January 26, 2022

Dead And Still Hurts

 dream of me dead to you

do you swear I am out of your mind • will you promise your hand that you’ve left mine behind • those who you have now are free to say • no longer in dreams can you feel my way

in real life all your hair is grey • but in real color you can now wash me away

love the life where I’m dead to you

shut me out of your world as a ghost • now that it’s what you’ve always ever wanted the most • ignore every message and call that was ever meant • to who you were before beyond repent • no circumstance under which buried • netting another better suited married • tailored to your new reality • garner your due unrest empathy • for you deserve all that you wish away • all that is well earned sympathy play

wondering aloud why friends never stay • bet on your future gambling with my today 

never undead to you

the only zombie you’ve made already had no soul • you’d rather not own anyone you can’t control • will power needs no gasoline filter • the woman you were claimed the girl in you killed her • still the whole world you want belongs to you

because if I’m dead in it, that means you’ve never been untrue

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I love the life I have even less • tested by those who’ve left me a mess 

of course it’s not your fault that I don’t know • anything good or to where I can go

all I remember is what I wrote down • now that I read it I’ve only been your clown • and now for your amusement I watched you disappear • the punchline was it was me you fear

dream of me dead to you

and you’ll never need wait in line • for the privileged everything is fine • and no one you know needs repair • because where I’m a ghost, I was never really there

i got a feeling … a feeling deep inside, o yeah

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