Letting You Go

 To Mary C. 

Ive assumed there’s no room for me … sight unseen half a century … when outclassed unaware … you’ve always been more than my share

a high school crush escapes … the underfoot fate of wine grapes … even Lucy could not have known … decades past being full grown

without burden of expectation … a voice from behind two generations … one for you and one for us … no one needs to make a fuss

it’s the span of three states … one catatonic one hesitate … would I buy a ticket and understand … what is needed to hold your hand 

we’ve both the same savior … tho one is certain she’s a her … in a world where pronouns rule … the crown universe has you as a jewel

it may be odd to declare such … but since I’ve had experienced once … what it’s really like to love … no one needs to push or shove

what I want is no big deal … just some to read about how I feel … someone who knows more than I … wouldn’t even ask her to try

for she is globally a step ahead … and I need not fill myself with dread … at hearing I don’t fit her bill … I’ve been lucky with those that have claimed I will

but after each seven years … what was once attractive now feed fears … of those who claim they know me better than … those who dictate what they can 

but all the promises we made … from the cradle to the grave … when all … i want …