Only Loss

for none before you I would never take up arms … only your tears and stories moved me to defend you from shopping mall harms

found my fist in hand to bring trauma to those in your way … I would still be in a cell if I let you have my way

such a beautiful unbreakable single pair … many that I knew were happy to find us everywhere

my career pitfalls and unwealth would be resolved with time … a commodity I now find would only be taken from mine

significant other foes relative family woes … the only troubles I had twelve years ago were everyone you used to oppose

what once attracted you now assumes your complaint … I have never hit anyone before but now you insist on me restraint

I now can’t even remember the love or the hate … I still have the pain and not one reason or goal on which to wait

faithfully blind … told my lack of vision allows me be treated less than unkind

standing guard over you gave me strength and charm … at every place you now today with another walk hand in arm

to see you safely travel to let you shop and see … now you insist to others all you fear is me

your silence for you is better now than then to have lied … if I am so toxic then why only me has died

with eternal devotion unsubscribed … stolen from me all I had and to be forever denied

 I woke today with everything you told me I had not … were you really afraid of me or the fear that you would get caught

with no reasons

no more seasons

just the cold

I don’t even feel old

I feel only loss

… and i saw my reflection in the snow covered hills …

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